I'm just gonna do it.
By now it's already been overdone (meaning I've seen
Mark and
Fang do it before me) but I'm tickled to try it as well. I wonder if I'm even gonna get to twenty. >,>.
So, here go twenty things addressed to anyone (well, specific people per statement) that I wouldn't be able or gutsy enough to actually tell them in real life.
I'll start by saying most of these don't apply to any of my followers, so there's less fun in that, but it will still be good to get them off my chest.
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1. I'm sorry I feel like you're a lesser person than I am sometimes. I shouldn't. Then again at other times I just feel like I failed you.
2. Even though I love you and I've known you forever, at times I can hardly stand you.
3. I don't even know why I'm suddenly kind of clinging to you. I guess it has something to do with recently discovered (or maybe developed) shared interests? I just hope you don't mind.
4. I haven't known you long but the more we talk, the more I feel like we've got a lot in common.
5. You confuse me. Or maybe I confuse me. I don't really think I like you like that anymore, but then again I don't really think I don't. I do still think you're cute. :').
6. Sometimes I really hate you. But then, I can never stay mad at you for long. Which is a good thing. We've been in this cycle of conflict and peace for years, I guess.
7. At times I really think you should stand up for yourself. Even against him. Aren't we at least as important as he is? Then again maybe you just agree with him.
8. I guess I'm sorry for reacting the way I did back then. I still don't agree with your behavior at all, but I guess I can understand the feeling of crippling insecurity and low self-esteem that behavior stemmed from.
9. No matter what I said and did, I'm really glad we're friends again.
10. You've changed. Grown up, I suppose. I don't like it. I was sad to see our friendship disintegrate into near-nothing in a couple of weeks, but now I just don't care much for you anymore. Maybe it's because I don't see you often enough.
11. I really wish you wouldn't unconsciously make me feel left out and less important. I also wish I could call you out on it without feeling like a whiny bitch with a 2000 page manual.
12. I love talking to you. I've never met you and that saddens me, but I love talking to you.
13. It's great that I can tell you anything and you'll try and cheer me up and rationalize my problems, even if I feel a little stupid for complaining so much.
14. I know the plans we made, but if I really think about it I don't think I want to be tethered to you so strongly for such a long time.
15. I don't believe you when you say you think I'm prettier than you are.
16. We used to be pretty good friends but now all I generally think when I look at you is 'ew'.
17. It's really sad to see you so down in the dumps so often. Also it makes me feel like a huge jerk for complaining to you. Then again, that's how our friendship started.
18. I'm scared I'll lose you. You may say we can stay in touch and I hope we do but I'm just afraid it'll dwindle away into nothing over time.
19. You are an amazing person and I wish you lived closer.
20. I liked you for the entirety of primary school. Isn't that funny?
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That was easier than I expected. Like I said, most of these are for people most of you don't even know, but it's a good feeling to put them somewhere. The last one is a hypothetical one that I could use to start a conversation but won't ever because of AWKWARD. I just wanted a light one to break the train of insecurity and general depression.
You're welcome to guess for your ones, even though only three of you are actually in there and those should be pretty obvious. :'D.
~Levyathan